So many books, so little time!

I LOVE going to the library.
I see all those books & I shiver & think to myself, look @ all these books I haven't read yet!

Why can't I ever fidn anything that interests me then.
Maybe I need to lower my standards.

I love getting mail to & telelphone messages when I return from being gone.
I hate days when there is no mail.
Because when there is mail, even if it's junk mail...
You can stand there looking @ it
& when someone asks,
what are you doing?
You reply, looking @ the mail.
DUH!
& they know exactly what you mean.

Dontcha just hate when this happens?

You post something just to realize that you don't really know how to fully take advantage of this posting/preview thingy & BAM! blog gone!

I guess you can say: BLOGGONEIT!!!! (maybe I'll start a trend w/ that word!)

You don't really feel like rewriting the thing over again becuase you know it will just NOT be the same!

Anyone else HATE bra shopping?

I was in desperate need of some new bra's that I have been putting off shopping for like FOREVER! But my best one from Fredericks (push up, ribbon lace up the front) finally gave way (the ribbon loops wore out)! And all I had left were a few NON-supportive, you can sleep in kind & a couple mishapen cupped ones, from spending time in the dryer (I know, I know, big nono).

SO I broke down & went to Mervyn's! It used to be that I had trouble 'fitting it all IN' the bra & always had to get the ugly 'full figured' kind (back before the majority became 'full figured', now they have pretty ones).I'd have boobs spilling out from all sides in my bra's! You know how when you wear a shirt you see the bra seam AND another roll of boob over-flowing from the top? (aka: spillage) Yah that USED to be me. Back in the day when I used to LAUGH @ 'padded', 'push-up' & the infamous 'water bra'.

SO now....I'm a bit more 'average' (which is being generous). I see a gazillion underwires, & all these pretty little things. The problem w/ those is for me, they HOLD UP but not really PUSH UP. kwim? NOT much to PUSH UP anymore.

I dreadfullly think I must resign myself to the 'nearly' section. You know the bra's that have HALF sizes, like NEARLY A, A, NEARLY B, & B. The size codes on the tags read: NA,A,NB,B. I look @ the models on the tags & yep they sure look like there's NEARLY nuthin' there! But that includes their whole body.It's great & I bet very equalizing for those less-endowed who could never get a right fit before to now have their own section. yay! for them! {rolling eyes}

But what about us?...what about those of us that I will now call "used-to-be's" You know? You're NOT an A, you're NOT a B, but you're just not quite a C or D anymore....hear what I'm saying?

Sure I look great in a halter-itsy-bitsy-teeny-weeny-yellow-polka-dot-binkini-TOP...but I very well can't wear THAT to church every Sunday now can I?

So I propose a size chart like this: used-to-be-C, used-to-be-D, the tags could read: UTBC or UTBD. I no longer fill in a C but a B isn't quite right. (or I could just be in denial?) This would make it so much easier. It could be filled in w/ something halfway up the cup to make up for the loss of...ahem..volume & mass, extra strong straps to reel those things up... & instead of just 3 adjustable hooks, go ahead & make it an even 6 so we could just let it OUT w/o having to admit that we are no longer a 36. ok? Sounds perfect to me.

Until then, whatever happen to that water bra thingy?

xoxoxoxo
kt

NOT very handi-capable!

Just got back from a trip to San Francisco....can I just say that city is definately NOT very 'equal opportunity'.

EVERYTHING has STAIRS! Even the sidewalks! Not too many handi-capped accessible places. Oh maybe a few..but how would someone in a wheelchair have gotten to that place to begin w/? The entire place is UPhill in EVERY direction. kwim?

Not that I need it since I am blessed w/ very good health. But it was different than what I am used too, even our cross-walks are handi-capable w/ loud beeps to notify a blind person when to cross. The drivers don't care if you are crossing or not, get out of their way if their turning, they'll run you over! I almost got flattened by a delivery truck! And the cross walk was all GO!

The cross walks count down too for how much time left you have to cross. I finally realized it was like a starting line @ the race track..10, 9, 8, 7.......3, 2, 1! 10 points if you hit one! It wasn't how much time I had to cross...it was how much time before they could run me over!

You will NEVER.....

~~~~~~be as funny as your Husband THINKS he is.
~~~~~~be on time unless you leave early, when you have kids.
~~~~~~be the weight on your driver's liscence, unless you over-estimate.
~~~~~~be as cool as you are TRYING to be.
~~~~~~be able to keep up w/ the 'Jones's'.
~~~~~~be caught up if you procrastinate.
~~~~~~be heard if you are yelling.
~~~~~~be good enough if your trying to be PERFECT.
~~~~~~be as unattractive as you THINK you are.
~~~~~~be as horrible a mother as you're afraid of being.
SO DEAL W/ IT!

a beautiful crack head?

OK.......can tv get that much more UNrealistic?

I've watched ER forever & it's gotten pretty lame....but whatever....if I'm awake I'll watch it.Last night, it opened w/ a doctor/band singer waking up from a night partying & there's a beautiful girl in his bed..........who wants him to 'join her' again! AND she's dipping into her 'coke' stash for breakfast!Now YOU tell me.....have you EVER heard of ANYone waking up from a night of partying, that you can't even remember, next to a BEAUTIFUL crack head?

YOU KNOW, that if that was real, she'd be some skank that you'd be trying to get away from before she even woke up, she'd have bags under her dark circled & sunken in eyes & who knows what else! ppuuuuhhhllleeeeeeze!

But I do have to admit, as unrealisitc as that is....I am a little bit tired of the 'realness' of that show. Do you REALLY think I am watching TV just to see a chubby mom, working late again, feeling guilty about missing little 'cosmo', who's @ home w/ his SAH-DADDY?

I want my stuff back!

Ya know, many women proclaim to feeling lost or like they lose themselves & their identity once they become a wife or mother. Well, I have been a wife & mother for about 12.5 years now & have never felt I lost 'myself' or who I was. I was always ME & THEN I was so & so's 'mom'. I had MY activities & things I enjoyed. I normally choose to put my ktbunch first but it never got in the way of who I was/am.

But lately................I seem to have lost all MY stuff! My make-up is in various bags & purses through out my home & on my floor, from being transferred by my dd who is 3. She is fascinated w/ 'make-up'. I give her, her own 'lipstick' which is really just chapstick but of course she loses it & interlopes into MY make-up bag. My make-up bag, which is no longer in a bag, now consist ONLY of the following: foundation, ONE eyeshadow, which is broken, thanks to above mentioned child, mascara & compact which is also broken thanks to same child! And it's now taken the place of sitting on the back of the toilet.

And my jewelry! I have 2 jewelry boxes & I keep finding things missing. I'm lucky if I can find a matching pair of earrings! My purse collection is nothing special, but I did have a variety of colors to match whatever color or mood I am IN that day, is now nothing more than containers for 'my little ponies', 'care bear' figures, mega blocks & various items from my make-up bag.

My bed, which is used daily for a trampoline or wrestling ring (but not unless it's made!) has been transformed from a luxurious & inviting pillow filled oasis to nothing more than a rectangular shape that I gratefully collapse into nightly, w/ an assortment of blankets that no longer have matching shams. I've got a floral quilt w/ a raider pillow cased pillow, a misshapen green decorative pillow & a smaller throw pillow. I think lately I have been using a kids blanket for a pillow.

I don't even have my collection of permanent, colored, sharpies! They were confiscated as 'art supplies'. I keep finding caps & pens in various places & NEVER together! My bedroom has TOYS in it! The one place that should be my get-a-way, my den of love or @ least where I can go to watch something rated R!!!! Nothing kills an amorous mood faster then rolling over on a stuffed animal that sings the alphabet song, when you're about to get 'hot & heavy'!

Which reminds me--who's bright idea was it for married people to have to SHARE a room anyway? I think all those old ladies that reverted back to their own living quarters after they were done having kids knew EXACTLY what they were doing!!..I don't think it had anything to do w/ sex! I think they were smart & realized the value of having their own room back! NO kids toys to step on! NO H socks on the floor. You can decorate it as frilly, girly & ruffly as you wanted & no one could complain because it was YOUR room!

I mean think about it............you probably grew up w/ your own room....@ least I did. Then I get married & suddenly I am expected to share my space, my bed (which isn't too bad) AND my closet???? Uh hello? It was easy for my H. HE shared a room w/ siblings his whole life! I, on the other hand, ALWAYS had my own room w/ 2 closets! Now I am sentenced to YEARS living w/ one quarter of the closet space I am used too? That's not fair! I don't think I've gotten quite the trade off. HE gets to share his bed w/ ME nightly & I have to share my shoe rack? See the injustice here?

I had one THING left that was MINE, ALL mine! My jar of body butter from bath & body works. That stuff is NOT cheap. IT smells like coconut & every time I use it I fantasize that I am on some tropical island all ALONE! IT keeps me sane AND soft. The other day......I find my dd covered up to her shoulders in it! I wanted to 'lose it' right then & there.

She looked up @ me w/ those beautiful eyes & said, "I can't get it off, mommy." She was trying to wash her hands w/ it. eeeeeek!!!! As I cried inside, mourning the death of my tropical escape, I grabbed a towel & gently wiped her off. I don't mind being the mother of the ktbunch OR "Mixed Nut's wife" but can I @ least get my OWN soap back?

I'm tired of using the green Incredible Hulk Foam soap! I really have NO need to: Mold it! shape it! or Squish it!