Creative Insomnia

I'm part of this upcoming art show...yet I don't consider myself an artist at all. Totally out of my comfort zone and I'm finding unexpected freedom in that. 

No expectation except to see what happens. A side affect of this burglary insomnia is (are?) the ideas I get in the middle of the night when I'm too tired to be afraid enough to self censure. Interesting for sure. 

Now, if only I could be so brave during the day light hours, when the weakness of fatigue is exposed. 

Another New Normal

Trusting in this, in Him, tonight. I feel disheveled. Wanting to regain my balance. My mind feels...flighty.

Realized more was stolen (in the break-in) ...but most of all, my peace. Giving myself grace to accept feeling off-kilter for awhile-accepting this vulnerability & lack of comfort that follows-as 'perfectly normal'. Surrendering *to* instead of striving *against*. There are too many what-ifs that I can not control, to waste any more energy pondering...or fearing.
Tomorrow will be better.

Unsettled

Day two of a very restless night of tossing & turning...break-in related? Maybe. I hoped the hike yesterday would have been more mentally & emotionally healing. I *feel* ok but...wake up exhausted.

Idk how one is supposed to feel, knowing an anonymous stranger was in your bedroom, rifling through your dresser drawers, touching your most intimate articles of clothing.
I plan to get rid of & replace every piece...but haven't been able to even go near the dresser yet. Maybe I will feel better once I do? Maybe it will restore balance to the force? ;-) Call me a wimp or over dramatic...but I think anyone who's been through something like this understands the feeling of vulnerability & violation.

Looking fwd to getting out of here for my regular Tues walk this afternoon.

We Were Robbed

Spent the last hour 'putting the pieces together' & realizing my home was broken into today. It looks like only the laptops were stolen, along with a backpack to carry them in.

PTL it wasn't worse...it could have been much worse. Its just inconvenient.