Exhausted really, physically, not so much mentally anymore...but it affects that way too.
Tomorrow is the appointment w/ the oncologist (?) @ the crack of dawn. The appointment is @ 8:30 am, so I'm planning on being @ my parents by 7:30....to be safe + all that back-to-work-after-the-holiday-traffic! aarrrggghhh.
I don't know WHAT this doctor will say. I wonder WHAT he will tell my mom exactly.
My mom's so tired all the time & that is a bit of a bummer.....doesn't seem like much 'quality' time is being spent @ all. But what can you do? The other day she 'took a walk'....made it 2 houses down then came back, exhausted. I've been wanting to work on our Disneyland scrapbook...since even before all this & even more now...we STILL haven't started. Maybe I should just start it myself but I think/thought she wanted us to do it together...but maybe she doesn't care either way?
I don't even know if we'll ever even go to Disneyland again....@ least w/ her.
I don't know if our last memories will be of everyone sitting around @ her house watching tv or what? She falls asleep w/ her mouth open & then she looks exactly like my grandma did when she died. It's too freaky. :o(
She's a bit anxious for her appointment tomorrow, afraid the doctor will want to run more tests. I told her the tests were over, there are no more, they already know what's going on.
We had a mini-bonfire tonight....I figured since it was Labor Day. I went & got the chocolate & graham crackers, my brother had the marshmallows already. My 2 brothers & lil e rasted them for us & I assembled the s'mores. My mom came out @ the end...for like 15-20 minutes...then I determined it was time to go cause I knew she was very tired & due to having to get up so early for the appointment tomorrow.
My brother burned a gigantic spider...well, 2 of them, one was just a garden spider, another was a Black Widow...so she deserved to die! haha. icky spider season! I came back from the 99 cents store w/ Pirate swords for the boys that made swish & clink sounds....I couldn't pass them up...even though I ONLY went for chocolate & graham crackers. lol I LOVE the 99 cents store. ;o)
Tomorrow is supposed to be the 'official' first day of school for my boys...I hope we can get some work done.....