Never Alone

Never Alone

I waited for you today

But you didn't show

No no.

I needed you today

So where did you go?

You told me to call

Said you'd be there

And though I haven't seen you

Are you still there?

Chorus

I cried out with no reply

And I can't feel you by my side

So I'll hold tight to what I know

You're here and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see you

And I can't explain why

Such a deep reassurance

You've placed in my life.

We cannot separate

'Cause you're part of me.

And though you're invisible

I'll trust the unseen.

Chorus

The first time I heard this song....all the 'religious mental tapes' ran through my head. I thought; "how dare they sing that God isn't there...He's always there for us, everyone knows that, every good Christian knows that." Right?

But I was drawn to the song...I continued to listen to it over & over....it is pretty much exactly how I think & feel. I don't 'feel' God, I don't really 'see' God. But somehow I do know that He is real. I have seen Him work in my life. I can attest to that.

But for me, it is not a feeling. That goes along w/ my basic personality as well. Not much of a feeler anyway, not very emotional.

I love how honest this song is. Many people testify to feel God & see Him, to know him so personally in ways I've never experienced. I've often wondered if there was something wrong w/ me. I can easily get caught up in the lingo to be sure I sound like an authentic & good Christian.

Lately, I've gone to the other end.....more of that raw honesty w/ God. I've realized...He can handle it. I've noticed more and more people are thinking the same way. It's ok to be angry @ God, ok to question Him. I think God desires our whole heart, body, mind & soul & that includes the good bad and the ugly. He really can handle it.

For so long I couldn't be honest. I thought I had to be a certain way, always the 'right way'. I'm not talking about righteousness. I am referring to saying the right things, acting like you got everything under control, you are ok, doing fine ect. You are a "good Christian".

Even w/ my questions, as this song describes, I still know, deep in my heart that God is always w/ me. I know He is real....even if I can't see or fell Him. My experience, though, may not always look like the next Christian's....or maybe it actually does.