So now you know...

I was *not* accepted to CSULB.  I felt rejected .... for a moment. Then it passed.  The reality is budget cuts.  They did not have the resources to accept *any* new enrollment in the Spring. So do you know what that means? Everyone, along w/ the usuals, applied for the fall.  The letter stated I had passed the first competitive round of applicants, but unfortunately, not the second.  They simply don't have the resources. I believe it.

It still sucks, honestly.  That was the only institution I applied for.  Initially, I thought, ok, there is another plan.  But now I'm not so sure. I guess I can scramble and still apply somewhere else....it's tedious. Is that an excuse? Certainly. I am rethinking everything.  I think that is fair to do.

No, I can't go back to the Community College, I am done there.  I need the upper division courses. And I need them from a local university. sigh. There is a slight feeling of stupidity--since I told *everyone* I was going back to school....I was so sure.

I am not sure now how to proceed.  Yes, I am continuing to pray about it. 
Curiouser and curiouser.